Blagh

I feel like total crap right now.

Wonderment

You know, I wonder what Blake would do if he found this blog. I can't imagine his reaction. Would he be mad, sad, disappointed? I honestly have no idea. My best friend might be seeing him in a couple days! I really want her to see Blake that way he knows exactly how i feel. When my BFF tries to Fantasy Football (FF) him, he doesn't respond. No, I lied he did respond. He told her to tell me he still loves me and that he's trying. I don't know what the mess that's supposed to mean. He's trying? The only things I can think of is he's either trying to get over me or trying to be happy. You see, when we broke up I told him to do whatever makes him happy. So, I should be glad right? Because you know all I want is for him to be happy. Well, that leaves me thinking, if all I want is for him to be happy how come it hurts so much?

*Love Ya*

Broken

So, today is my first day blogging so I'm going to be interested to see how this works out for me. I started this blog because I'm really bored, can't sleep, and need to let my problems out. I figured someone might get a kick out of reading my problems and about my life so here we go!

I am not a very happy person, though a lot of people think I am. I am actually really depressed over this guy. His name is Blake and recently he left me after approximately six months. This happens to everyone right? Well, that's not the problem. The problem is that I still love him and he feels the same way. We only broke up because we have never seen each other's faces. Well, technically he has seen my picture, but it is a really bad picture so I don't want to count it. Now, I know what you're thinking. You're thinking he's some crazy guy out there trying to make me commit suicide but that's not it. You see, he is my best friend's cousin and exactly a year older than me, down to the minute.

Now I have to go. Write more later today. 

*Love Ya*