Wonderment

You know, I wonder what Blake would do if he found this blog. I can't imagine his reaction. Would he be mad, sad, disappointed? I honestly have no idea. My best friend might be seeing him in a couple days! I really want her to see Blake that way he knows exactly how i feel. When my BFF tries to Fantasy Football (FF) him, he doesn't respond. No, I lied he did respond. He told her to tell me he still loves me and that he's trying. I don't know what the mess that's supposed to mean. He's trying? The only things I can think of is he's either trying to get over me or trying to be happy. You see, when we broke up I told him to do whatever makes him happy. So, I should be glad right? Because you know all I want is for him to be happy. Well, that leaves me thinking, if all I want is for him to be happy how come it hurts so much?

*Love Ya*